7.19.21

“Master the unknown by knowing your deep self.” - quote from last night’s tea bag 

Growing up seems to be this process of simultaneous learning about self and world. Reading this tea bag quote, I thought about writing about what I know about myself. Last night I was thinking about doing it but I didn’t because I got too tired. One of the things I was thinking about writing down was that I know that I have this pattern of smoking weed and getting the munchies and over eating sweets and then feeling bad about it. I also know that I love holding hands and diving under the wave when it comes, and feeling the chaotic foam above me under the water. I know a lot of things about myself. I know that exercising helps my mental state, makes me happy, cheers me up. What I don’t know about myself is what will happen to me. What I will do in life. But that’s okay not to know that. “Knowing your deep self.” Maybe coming to know my deep self in the present now and examining the past will help me understand what’s next, make more clear what my goals are. I want to make an album. I want to write a book.