7.14.21

Stream of consciousness writing for 7 minutes:

Last night B, E, and I sat in the living room and exchanged music. Music we are working on and music we are listening to. It made me really want to make a project. Make an album. I also want to write out the lyrics to the songs I’ve been working on. Thinking about making music for your friends. Making music for an audience that loves you more than anyone else. I really don’t want to have that conversation with N again. The conversation where I express not getting enough from him and he expresses that he doesn’t want to hurt me, yet it is impossible to change the natural flows of attention and attraction. And also he doesn’t need to change. I want to nurture our own individualities. Writing this is a part of that. Caroline Tompkins wrote, “Art tells you what you already know.” I’m not sure if that was the direct quote. But I’ll look it up after. 

I like the venn-diagram project I started yesterday, and I wonder how to generate the parts for the two circles. I tried random word and random sentence generation. That didn’t work. Then I came up with surfing the waves vs. surfing the web. It seemed like a good place to start. I am fascinated with the reality we all exist in in which we have dual bodies, dual consciousness, dual identity. Dual isn’t the right world. Multiple is the right word. Multiple realities in the digital and physical world. The recorded world and the experienced world. That would be a good venn diagram, the picture and the event. Something like that. To be human is to live in multiplicity.