8.10.21

I came upstairs to start writing because I was feeling melancholy playing guitar downstairs, wishing I was better than I am. Wishing things were different than they are. I just made a venn diagram of feeling happy and feeling sad and it really helped me feel better. The key right now is trusting in the unfolding of my life. In other words, trusting myself. The cloth of my life is unfolding and I want to relish in the feeling of fabric in my hands. I want to feel excited by the fact of life. The fact of existence and possibility. I think I’m going to start a screenplay. I always have these feelings in conversations, the feeling of god this is good. 

I made a document that’s titled screenplay, it’s a start. I feel so grateful for my sweet potato vines. I love how they just grow and grow.