1.17.22

Notes on my 25th birthday 

I’m thinking about the email I got from my car insurance about the car accident I got in many months ago with the elder cab. I hope the old lady is okay. I don’t really want to think about it. 

I’m also thinking about how grateful I am for my life. I feel full in many cups. I feel so grateful to be in such a deep and real and fun relationship with N. I love him so much and I feel so happy and inspired in our relationship. I feel so insanely grateful for all of my friends. I feel like I live with the coolest people in the world. My bestest friends ever. I feel so seen by the people closest to me and so loved. I am just constantly amazed by the brilliance and humor and incredible ideas that my friends have. I also feel so grateful for my family. I feel so blessed to have such close and honest relationships with my immediate family. I feel like the people in my life actually know me and feel like I know myself. 

I want to get to know myself and the world better. I think beyond the fundamental principle of love, life is about exploration. I want to learn more in the next five years. I think because I’m 25 I’m thinking about turning 30. I hope by the time I’m 30 I will have put some art out into the world in a brave way. I want to take risks and be confident in sharing my world with the world. I also want to do more for the world, for my community, my loved ones. I want to live selflessly while maintaining a sense of protection, cherishing, and honoring of myself. I want to be present with myself and with people. I hope I meet more interesting people in the next 5 years. I hope I grow a garden. I hope I expand my cooking skills. I hope I deepen the relationships I have. I hope I continue to feel more and more in love with life, and grateful for it. I love you!!!!!!!!!